Thursday, August 30, 2007

Happy days..........

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Was listening to the songs from this movie "Happy Days"......so sorta struck in a nostalgic wrap.......A throwback to the engineering days...so now get urself a tortoise coil...( mortein goodknight..or whateva...).....and lets get started...oh come on.....we r now on a flashback mode...........

Engineering days...I was lucky to get thru them b4 they switched to the present mode of being run like junior colleges........those were the times when u felt like u were kings of the world..the whole world was at ur choice.....we had this defiant streak...which just led us to live life on full terms..(or atleast i thot so....)

One bus pass and u had the whole city @ ur disposal......classes were meant to be for attendance.....books were for library and studyin was strictly restricted to exams..and results were in binary mode..(pass/fail).....

Hangin on the footboard was an art to be perfected.....tuckin a shirt was for highly special occasions.....mobile phones were for "rich " kids....bikes were prized possessions...which gave you access lot of things considered "privileged"....

Cricket matches defined ur existence.....canteen was the most frequented place....(..library steps come close )parties were meant to be rare occassions ..( it still is for some people)...at end of a hard day....money was pooled to buy a cool drink....lunch boxes were exchanged frequently.....last bench gang was a sacrosanct cult......Aims and ambitions were retrospective definitions......

All desires unfulfilled were locked away " when i earn i will do this...when i become big rich and famous will do that...." lots and lots of them..most of them lost their meaning.........lot of new ones previously unthought kept croppin up...........

It was a world wrapped and protected...the big bad world was still away.......college was our feifdom..infact lot of small feifdoms..which were meant not to be disturbed by one another........everyone was the protaganist of his/her world....

Friends ..the Be all and End all of those times...days started and ended with them........plans were made and destroyed for them........parting at the end of those years was the hardest......a few memories and u were oozin nostalgia...everythin tht u cursed durin those four years seemed lovely.......u visited the college and ur mind saw all those memories floating around......u r transported 2 a new world...infact a very old world....a world where u thot u were the happiest...........

and now where are all those...memories seem sweet.... people who made them have changed.....ambitions have been achieved...but u have nothin 2 prove to anyone.....all those unattainable things have fallen into your lap...but u have grown bored of them..........new ambitions, new plans, new people and...a new world...and making memories all over again.................


Enjoyed life then....enjoyin life still....will continue to do so.....methods may change....but aim is to enjoy all the same...what is correct ..and what is wrong is a moot point...cos at the end of the day its all relative.......

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Freedom....



Exhilaration of freedom ……….the joy of liberation….regaling flight of the spirit……..some of the thoughts that are getting to my mind…..

Last few days have been a revelation…the last few notes of discontent have gone from the symphony of my life…i am in perfect sync with my life…i am not getting used to it but i am enjoying it..realizing it cud not have been better for me………..

It may seem cynicism for many……..but I have seen life from the other side and I can perfectly understand that they cannot understand my perspective..they are too lost in flow of life..blinded by the blur of elementary ecstasy and momentary mesmerization………..

I am still a perfect believer of magic in life..but I don’t want to be fooled by hand tricks…

I realize that I am still able to live my life on my own terms…..I realize only my ambition and passion can restrain me , put constraints on me and stop me from doing something I want to do. I realize that i have not been forced consciously or subconsciously to do certain things people seem to be enjoy doing.......I realize that I am yet to make a compromise with my life,. I am yet to force myself to accept that this is the best I can get and I need to change myself to keep it with me….I realize my options are still open, my ideas are still mine, my aims still dictated by my likes and dislikes…I realize I am still free……