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wel these are some of the questions i did wanna ask myself some day ....so lemme shoot...and lemme answer as it clicks onto my mind...this is as spontaneous as it gets..if at the end of it...it looks like crap...then iam deletin it......thts a stupid question to start with..if i knew the answers..why would i be here..typing outall these cravings of ignoramus...... when iam happy..i get so lost in happiness tht i fail to realise wht is that exactly is making me happy...next time will try gettin to the exact reason......i dont believe in remembering things that make me sadif only had i had an enemy life would have been interesting...damn i keep meeting so many good people that everyone becomes a friend and too much of a good thing could be dangerous ...since friends are good ...best friend is an dangerous concept tht i wish to steer clear off....- who is my greatest enemy?
do u still need to ask this question dumbo......aim aparatus theory and stuff should be confined to record books of perplexin experiments we did in our schools and colleges.....kal ka koi tikaana nahee..aim se kya karne kaa.....- wht is the greatest evil stalkin the humankind?
all the evil was dead in the movie "evil dead" rt.....anything left was taken care in the sequels....aur kya evil bacha hain rey????wht happened till now..tht i get worried about next.......- whts the reason to party in life??
quotin someone( i dont know who).....life may not be the party we wanted to go..but now that we are here lets dance.....- wht do u think u would do to make life exciting?
well i think i should learn guitar, i should learn salsa, i can also join an dramatics club...well thinking about this itself is exciting..since i have made life exciting by thinking alone..whts the need to do all tht???...ok lemme go and sleep..gdnt byebye..........ok its done ...spontaneity stop...oh i feel lazy to read all the above stuff to check whether it is good or not.......iam just hitting the publish key.....enjoy the madness.................
they say men are from mars and women are from venus...............if its rt...did the earth belong to eunuchs????anyways on a serious front.......are men and women so diametrically different.............logically speaking ............strippin out all the societal mores...both are human beings..........the differences if any should be as normal as between a guy and guy or a gal and gal........but why does this gender divide comin..ok lets not get into women oppresion and differentiation and stuff now..it does not help complicating a complicated issue further .....rt.....lets consider people from say upper middle class....people most likely to consider and bring up their kids equally in atleast most of the things...............and lets consider people who are in similar situations ..people working in say similar circumstances.............after similarising so much..still differences do occur............well may be iam sounding too very ignorant.......but this is something to wonder about ...when people do react in alarming different ways...which can be generalised by only one logical explanation ...their gender...........i thought when all the caricatures and stereotypes which we see in movies are exxaggerated generalisations...but imagine my alarm when i see them for real......u can guess that she will react in this manner and he will react in this way ...down to a T...........thts wht is so boring about the whole thing.......gals never cease to surprise me..and iam bored by the surprises.......and few things are so obvious that u want to raise above them..and u just cant......u will find that every gal likes choclates...every gal will be mighty pleased if u praise her(esp her beauty..existent or non -existent)...........lot many charecteristics..which everyone knows.....and so boring even to post here..............and every time i meantion this to a gal..she will invariably say...iam not like this...whereas she would be the same in 90 % of those things......some gal wud may be turn up at this blog.....and say the same thing..........well iam not saying guys are good and great....we do have our idiosyncrasies.....cricket football or any sport will excite us more than anything else..........guys will think of adventure first sentiment later........guys may be more interested in gettin physical most of the times..........guys get most freaked ou after gadgets....................but why are these generalisations.........why cant people be more varied , more interestin....it would be much more fun..if u meet some gal who cud atleast be different...good or bad is a later concern...........but you see...iam thinkin just like all other guys do............damn these generalisations......
Its funny how stereotypes are made...its funny how everyone gets after the stereotype of success.....few days ago success meant goto USA get a green card .....come back marry a gal and goback ... settle there.....and it is still the same for some people...and these guys are in great demand when it comes to the marriage markets.............but how times have changed.....the whole world is comin to india.........All the so-called benefits/attractions/advantages of USA or any other western country is now in india....that is ofcourse if u can afford it............and it has happened silently.....and so very swiftly......... just like some one was moving the pieces separately , silently and suddenly the move is clear..the die is cast and the trap is clearly laidout in a game..............and everyone is partying now.........and people who had no hopes in life are now making fast progress.........and at breakneck speeds.....well well........ Iam not chronicling that here now..there are better books and authors who have done a better job of it........what i was wondering about was.......how have the stereotypes changed...i mean everyone does the same thing...as if its a golden laid out formula for success......first u ought to be an engineer or doctor.......that is when u are into graduating.....once u r into engineering......u must be doin software courses irrespective of the branch u r in......once u r done with engg....u must write GRE/Gate...........i mean everyone is doin it..u ought to do it.......everyone who is worth his/her salt is advising you to do that.................nowadays MBA is the buzz word.......with the media making a hype out of salarys of b-school grads...its the in -thing.....that is if u have crossed over the IT engineer thing...few days ago it was the most swanky thing...but now with every other guy whom you meet being a software engineer regardless of what where or how he studied...........it has become (or so it seems ) become passe..........and we have number of people writing CAT tripling in 3 years............and fees for coaching institutes (offering you all and sundry type of CAT coaching) increasing by four times......and everyone wants to become an manager............and everyone wants to know the secret of cracking CAT..........iam not being dismissive....but people ought to know about themselves ......about wht they wanna do,....why they wanna do....about wht they want to do..before deciding on doing something.....they do it just because everyone is doin it........whatever..........whom do i wanna change....how many will i change....and why would i want to change them..................these wry ways of world .....these are meant to be like this..........just because people are like this....people who make a difference...who are different ......are made to look special..and they deserve to be............kudos to those guys.....who have been different.....and who are responsible for India to be enjoyin these sunny days...........IF NOT FOR THEM......wht would have these stereotypicalpeople done............hmmm......**sigh**...................
I am feeling fresh......i think i have got back something that i thought i had lost by a twist of fate. .........but it seems it was ordained that way. i have rediscovered my life. I was wilting away .....whiling away my time worrying over what i lost. but i cud not fathom what i was losing in the process. I was losing my life, perhaps the best days of my life.I realise that life always need not be what we think is the best. after all......is not every life a script in itself, with no pre ordained formulas and ways to success. .........so what was i searching for???.............was i after a mirage...was i realising what was in my hands while i was searching the whole world for the "reason " of my happiness. Why not enjoy life as it comes....and to be exactly precise....my life has not given me reasons to complain......let me not give my self reasons to fret over the lost time....iam enjoyin life after a long time..rather iam realising iam enjoyin it...and iam lovin it........no regrets for what happened...it taught me so much about life and it gave me so many sweet moments to treasure and strong lessons to digest........and i did not lose anything relvant in the process and before i lose something lemme get over it and enjoy life ...and i have already started doing it................I have rediscovered LIFE.
hey why dont people let me sleep even on a sunday ...gettin up at unholy hours on sundays and callin me and waking me up......now dont ask me whats that unholy hours meant to be.....it changes from week to week for me......and i being the good boy.....try talkin to them .....and blabber lot of nonsense on the phone..............my jokes go real bad when iam sleepy.......but u just cant stop them........god help those who listen to them....:Pdisturbed sleep means lot of dreams.......rather it means that u remember stuff u dream about.......and when u do that u feel restless.......dont even feel like u had a good sleep.....but dreams are funny sometimes, and scary at times....not in the horror movie kind of thing....but things u fear may happen do happen in our dreams and u wake up and realising its just a dream and u are at such an immense relief ..........some times u have sweet dreams and wake up dissapointed when u realise it was just a dream...........its all that much better that u forget the dreams ..have a sound sleep.......no tensions and repurcussions in the morning............anyways me feelin sleepy again.....should not waste this sunday...so here i doze off again.......hope no one calls me up to disturb my poor dear sleep...:(
well well...what to say.......weekends they seem to be so good........why do weekends end after all. ....but little do we realise that weeks total work is what makes weekend beautiful.....today iam sorta retrospective........why not...lifes been eventful wonderful and bloody fool...thts for the rhyming effect.....from runnin after the college bus to taking on the traffic in delhi...life has come far.......joys and sorrows have changed......after all change is essence of life.....thinking of change one thing that does not change is the effect of these traffic jams......oh wht a pain they are.....even as you are trying to figure out how to get out of the mess that lies ahead of you......comes the king behind you and starts honking as if u have been standin in his way on the wide highway with out being able to drive your bike........i feel like parkin my bike then and there and get down and slap that guy ......well my belief in my muscular abilities does keep me from taking that extreme step.........but what does he mean by honking the horn......is he the only one who has to go through the damn traffic ...everyone is at loss of ways to negotiate that messy stuff out there......i keep talking alot to myself when drivin and its lot of fun......a lot of situational comedy does arise which keeps me happy while driving.......there is a lot left to explore in my life.....and i need to do that.....no point in returnin to same things again and again especially when they seem to be movin nowhere........and these days my bad moods are costin me a lot quite literally ...i read some where that when u r in a bad mood it is a good idea to pamper yourself...and pamper myself is becomin quite a costly affair.......i go shoppin to spruce up my moods and then instinct takes over and i end up buyin a lot........really i hate bad moods........today was my friend's and room mate's birthday..........we had the usual rounds of celebrations.....this sweet guy deserves a lot more man.....such a nice guy......he is a really good human being .......nice to have him as my friend.......anyways this does make me realise that i have stopped making friends and started making acquaintances..people i thought of as friends ahd moved on with their lives, whereas i have had stopped doing so...defined my circle..and built up a wall around me........this does not quite work for me...........i need to reach out...have a good time..make people happy and be happy..after all thats what life's all about.......thinking is again gettin on to my nerves.....i keep thinking too much.....much beyond the realm of possible .....explorin non existin possiblities which disturb me.........i need to stop this....after all ignorance is bliss........stop thinking and start livin......tension nahee lene kaa..bas dene ka......as munna bhai would have us believe.......
